I know I have not been around much lately, and I have been cryptic about a lot of things. I know I asked for prayers over various social media accounts over the last week or so, and I have to say – thank you, thank you, thank you. Knowing I have been in your thoughts is truly comforting. I am so grateful for such an amazing support system. Writing is so therapeutic for me, so if you don’t mind, I want to write about my dad.
Unfortunately, yesterday my dad lost his eight year battle to Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia. My dad had put up such a long fight – years of chemotherapy treatments, a failed bone marrow transplant, a host of immune system issues, and finally a horrible bout of shingles as well as fungal and bacterial pneumonia.
I know – you have to kind of catch your breath when you read all of that. Needless to say, my dad was in a lot of pain and his quality of life had decreased dramatically over the last few months. As hard as it was to let him go and let God take him home, my entire family knows it was for the best. When we talked to him on Wednesday before he passed, he was so at peace. His face that was usually tense and stressed out was relaxed and the furrowing eyebrow that he has always had went away. I knew after that he was no longer suffering.
In our scrapbook from Europe, there is a caption bubble over this picture with my dad saying “Stonehedge Rocks!”. If you knew my dad, you would know how much he appreciated me making that joke.
The hardest part about everything for me was not being able to physically be in the same room with him or see him for the past few months. I have been able to talk to him on the phone, and in the hospital I was able to see him through the glass doors of the room he was in. I knew he was aware that I was there with him, but it was difficult to not be able to touch him, hug him, and give him a kiss. I do know, however, that my dad loved his grandchildren more than life itself. In fact, he told me many times that his goal in life was to be able to pick them up from a standing position and not fall over. That and that alone, would make his life worth living. Seeing my dad with Aubrey always brought tears to my eyes. My dad was never an overly affectionate person, but watching how much he loved her made me understand how much he loved his kids as well.
Fully knowing how much he loved his grandchildren, I know he would not have wanted me to put my girls at risk for getting any sort of infection by being in his hospital room. He was adamant about me staying out of his room before he even went into the hospital, so I wanted to respect his wishes. I am so sad my girls will never get to know their Papa in this lifetime, but I told him on Wednesday (on the phone) that I would make sure my girls knew about his horrible lame jokes (“what did the boy volcano say to the girl volcano after their first date?” “I lava you.” SO bad) and dry sarcastic sense of humor.
I like to think I had a special bond with my dad. I was born on his birthday almost twenty six years ago, and one of my favorite things was hearing him tell me every single year on July 23rd that I was “the best birthday present” he had ever gotten. He was always so selfless and let his birthday really be his little girl’s birthday (although if you knew my dad I’m sure he muttered about it under his breath 
).
My dad had so many great qualities (and ones that drove us batty as well). As a parent, he was really really hard on us growing up. At the time, it would get on my last nerve that I wasn’t allowed to just yell “WHAAAT” when he wanted our attention or that our rooms always had to be pristine, but I get it now. He was trying to teach us respect – respecting others, respecting your property, respecting yourself. My dad was always one of my biggest supporters. He never missed a swim meet and always encouraged me to do my best and learn from my mistakes. He is also one of the main reasons why I became a teacher. While high school math is not really my thing, algebra was his. (Another one of his jokes – “What did the mermaid wear under her shirt?” “An algae bra.”) He loved teaching and loved coaching track and field every spring. He was passionate about his work and he truly inspired me to go into education.
We spent a lot of time yesterday after he passed talking and laughing about my dad. Like about how we can never play Scattergories at Christmas anymore because it wouldn’t be the same. My dad would always make us follow the rules but then he and my uncle would cheat. It always became a huge yelling match and left everyone in stitches about what the rules were. Or about how whenever we played Pictionary, he would get so frustrated when my mom couldn’t guess what he had drawn. Instead of drawing a different picture, he would just point harder at the picture with this scowl that only my dad had. Just thinking about that one makes me laugh hysterically. Or perhaps the best one of all time was when my dad accused all of us kids of hoarding spoons in our bedrooms (the spoons were always disappearing in our house). I finally yelled and told him to go check my underwear drawer to look for the spoons. I joked with my brother and sister yesterday that we could finally take the spoons out of their hiding places in our old rooms. Everyone was able to get a kick out of that. And I definitely know that once my children are old enough to say “I don’t know” to me when I ask them a question, my dad will be laughing hysterically at me and eating a piece of chocolate cake in Heaven (yes, just like Bill Cosby).
The laughter and memories have definitely helped. It has definitely broken up the tension and sadness during the last few hard days. As hard as this has been on my family, we are so at peace and relieved that my dad is not in pain anymore. My dad was always such a physically fit person and watching him not be able to do the things he loved to do over the last few years was very difficult. Knowing he got a new body in Heaven gives me peace to know he can walk and run without a walker. I’m hoping he’s already had a few beers as well.
At church, we actually had a sermon a few weeks ago about death and heaven, and I am really seeking comfort in that right now. One of the points that was made was that this life and the next is really a continuum – that the second this life ends, our new and eternal life begins. That because there is no sadness or pain in the presence of Jesus that our family and friends who leave this earth before us aren’t sad to know that they have left their family members behind.
We are holding up better than I thought possible, and our family and friends have been nothing but wonderful during this trying time. I can’t promise I will be around much in the upcoming days or weeks and I’m so thankful you all understand.
“Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave with regret? There are better things ahead than any we leave behind.” – C.S. Lewis
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Oh, Chelsey. My heart goes out to your and your family. Your post was beautiful and I don’t have words to express my sympathy, however, a special prayer is going up for you and your family today.
P.S. I love that volcano joke!
I can’t even begin to tell you how deeply sorry I am Chelsea! You have been in my prayers and will continue to be throughout this all. You know I am here if you need ANYTHING. So so so much love to you and your family through this all.
Thanks Lauren, I appreciate it!
Oh my goodness, I am SO sorry!! I will be thinking of and praying for you and your family at this difficult time. This was a beautifully written post and I am sure that you dad is SO proud of you. He will definitely be watching over you and your sweet baby girls!
I want to say again I am so sorry for your loss and your families loss. I am happy your dad is no longer suffering and is in peace now. He will be watching over you and those beautiful twin girls, you can bet that, I know he will be smiling from above every single day.
This was such a sad and beautiful post, makes you realize how precious life is. I am glad that you know how precious life is and you were always there for your dad, family is everything.
Lots of love to you and the family during this difficult time <3
We are all thinking of you over here, please know that <3
Thanks Katie - and thank you for continually telling me over the last few days that you have been thinking of me!
I’ll be praying for you and your family, Chelsey. I am incredibly sorry for your loss.
What a lovely tribute to your father!
You and your family are in my prayers; I’m so sorry for your loss.
Beautifully written, Chelsey! Take care of yourself. I know all of your readers (myself included) are thinking and praying for your family. xo
What a great Dad!
I’m so sorry Chelsey. Having a friend that passed away from leukemia, I can imagine how much your Dad was suffering. I’m glad he is resting now & in peace. You’re in my prayers.
I never met my Dad’s parents, but I love hearing so many great story’s about them & feel like I really know them. It looks like you will have plenty to tell your children too. XOXO
I am so sorry over the loss of your father. He sounded like such a wonderful man. Thoughts and prayers during this difficult time for you and your family.
I’m very sorry, Chelsey….I’ll absolutely keep you and your family in my prayers as you go through this…I’m so glad to read that your family could laugh about all of those funny stories - I’m betting that’s exactly what your dad would want you to do!
LOL - actually, we were joking that we shouldn’t be laughing because my dad would want us to be in mourning. Of course that just brought on another bout of giggles.
omg I am a sobbing mess right now, this was a beautiful post, Chelsey. I am so sorry for your family’s loss but so glad that he’s at peace (and enjoying a few beers). I’m in KC this weekend but let me know if you need ANYTHING from me. Love you.
Thanks lady!
So sorry to hear this news. May He Rest In Peace.
I am so sorry to read this. You have written such a beautiful tribute to your father. Thank you for sharing a part of him with all of us. I will be praying for you and your family.
I am so sorry Chelsey. This post made me cry. I have never really had a Dad but always wished mine was around. I can tell your Dad lived his life in the best way possible being the best Dad he could at all times. It just proves it that even in the last few days he still put you and your babies first. I wish your family nothing but peace and comfort at this time.
Thank you for putting that into perspective for me. I definitely am so glad and blessed to have had my father for almost 26 years instead of not at all.
Oh, Chelsey, I am so sorry for your loss. I admire your positive spirit. Just reading this post made me feel at peace, somehow, which makes me hope that in some ways, you feel the same. Watching someone go through pain is terrible, and I know that your dad is feeling so much better now, most likely drinking a beer and eating a piece of cake. He will be there watching over you and your girls. Sending lots of prayers your way.
I really do feel at peace - we honestly feel so relieved that he is not in pain.
Chelsey, I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. This was a beautiful post and tribute to your dad. Keep being strong for you and your girls.
So so sorry for your loss. But it’s good you have family and friends there for support right now. You and your family are in my thoughts.
That was so beautiful - prayers for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry about your dad! Your post was such a beautiful tribute to him. I’ll be praying for you and your family that you’ll know God’s presence with and care over you in the days ahead.
what a beautiful post, chelsey! my thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time! i seriously laughed out loud at his dumb jokes (that only dads can make!) and i know you had a special place in his heart. he will forever live on through you, your girls, and your family. xoxo
LOL - he was the WORST joke maker. And he knew it too. I already told my mom I have dibs on his t-shirt that says “i’m a fun guy” with a picture of a smiling mushroom.
I’m so sorry to hear about your loss Chelsey. An absolute beautiful gorgeous heartfelt post. xxxxxxxx
I will be praying for you and your family. Keep hanging on to those wonderful memories and stories-your dad sounds like a wonderful man. <3
Chelsey,
I have enjoyed your blog for months now and I am so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May you find peace and gratitude in all of your beautiful memories and stories (and jokes!).
Chels, I’m not sure what else I can say that I haven’t already. I’m so glad that I’ve been able to be here for you during this time over the past couple of weeks (even if it’s from “far away”) and as I told you already, I completely admire the courage and selflessness that you and your family have.
I’m not sure I’d ever be able to write a post like this as eloquently as you have, but I’m sure your dad is already reading it and smiling…with his beer and piece of chocolate cake in hand.
“Dad is GREAT! He gave us chocolate cake!” xoxo
And I don’t know what I would have done without you to talk to these past few months. Just telling you about everything that was going on was so wonderful for me. You have been the best!!!
And I hope he isn’t drinking beer and eating chocolate cake at the same time. That would taste gross - but who knows, maybe that tastes good in Heaven!
You know I’m praying for you & your family with all of my heart…. The eternal life is more than we could ever imagine and being able to take comfort in that is truly a blessing……… He is holding your babies right now and giving them special love before they meet their mama, I’m just sure of it. {hugs & love}
I love that thought about my dad holding those babies right now. My mom and I were talking about how he’s probably hanging out with all his future grand kids right now too. He is probably loving every second.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. This post was beautiful and such a lovely tribute to his memory. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss Chelsey. You and your family will be in my prayers. Such a beautiful post and wonderful tribute to your dad. And thank you for sharing him with us. (((HUGS)))
Aw, Chelsey….I’m so sorry. Wishing you are your family peace and comfort.
I am so sorry for your loss Chelsey. My prayers are with you and your family. Your post was beautiful.
Sitting here sobbing, so very sorry for your loss. As someone who lost their Dad 3 years ago, I’ll offer the same support and love you offered to me at that time. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers and if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here. It sucks and again, I’m so very sorry.
Thanks Jen. It does suck, but I am so so glad he’s at peace right now. He just wasn’t “my dad” the last few years - if that makes any sense at all. He hated what his cancer did to him, that’s for sure. I know he is much happier now.
Chelsea -
I’m praying for you and your family. I know it’s a difficult time and you will miss your Dad so much. When my grandmother, who I was extremely close to, was dying a few years ago she told me something precious. She said “Honey, as much as you love me remember that Heaven is my real home. Jesus is waiting for me, and I will be so happy to wait with Him until you get there too.” God Bless you and your family. ~Michelle
I love that - thank you Michelle.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. This was beautiful, and I am sure your father is looking down on you tearing up just as I am reading this post. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Chelsey, I am so sorry. I am sending lots of hugs and love your way. Beautiful tribute.
Just here to offer you a hug- even if it is over the internet and through a comment. Your dad sounds like he was a great man!
My dad is my best friend, and I can’t possibly begin to imagine what you’re going through right now. My thoughts and best wishes are with you and your family right now.
What a wonderful tribute to your dad. I am so sorry for your loss. I am more than certain that your dad is smiling down on you today. How proud he must still be! God Bless you, your sweet babies, and your family.
so beautifully written…..sending good thoughts and prayers your way
Oh Chelsea, I am so so sorry! Your post is absolutely lovely. While no one should have to lose a parent at a young age, I’m also glad your dad and your family don’t have to suffer any more. You’ll all be in my prayers.
Hugs and prayers to you and your family. This post was absolutely beautiful and was a definite tribute to the wonderful man your dad was. It is clear he shines through you!
Chelsey, I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. But I have to say that this was such a beautiful tribute to your dad, even though I know it must have been very difficult to write. I was seriously in tears at my desk at work. I think your dad would be honored to read what you wrote about him. Sending lots of love your way.
Thank you Stephanie. It actually made me feel so much better to write - the words just flowed. I know my family enjoyed reading it as well.
So very sorry for your loss. Praying for peace and comfort for you and your family.
I’ve been following your blog for a few months now and never commented but I had to comment on this post. I’m so sorry for your loss. I actually couldn’t read past the first paragraph because I lost my dad 4 years ago to pancreatic cancer and it’s still very fresh for me. I can’t imagine going through that pregnant and my heart goes out to you and your family.
Thank you Sarah - and I’m sorry about your dad as well. My nana died from pancreatic cancer 18 years ago, and the memories are still fresh in my mind about that terrible cancer. I think I’m actually taking this better BECAUSE I am pregnant and I know my dad would want me to take care of my babies instead of being stressed out and worrying about him. So really, I’m doing it to honor him.
Oh Chelsey. I’m so sorry. But I am so thrilled that your Dad is no longer in pain, and is with Jesus in heaven! He sounds like a really amazing man - they are SO lucky to have him up there. I know he’ll love your girls from heaven more than you can imagine!
Love and prayers to your whole family.
Chelsey - I am a long time reader from Germany. I’ve never commented before, but today I wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prayers.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Chelsey. Your post brought tears to me eyes. You dad was a special person, and I’m positive he’s so proud of you. And I always say, it’s not “goodbye” but “see you later.” <3 to you!
I know that it doesn’t come close to expressing my sympathy, but I am truly sorry for your loss and glad you can take comfort in your happy memories and have a great support system around you. Sending prayers your way!
I am so so so sorry for your loss. I probably shouldn’t have read this right when I got to work because I am working really hard not to fight back the tears. Beautifully written tribute to your dad. Thinking about you!
LOL - I am sorry. I’ve read it about twenty times, so I don’t cry when I read it anymore. I’ve been trying to focus on the good times and memories I have of him. He was the most stubborn, infuriating man I have ever met, but he was also the best man I have ever met.
Sobbing Chelsey (being 25 weeks pregnant doesn’t help). This was such a beautiful tribute. I know we don’t know one another, but wanted you to know that I am praying for you and your family and for continued strength. I am so sorry for your loss. Hang in there - and keep on writing!
Totally understand the being pregnant and emotional thing. I’ve actually been holding up much better than I thought I would be, but I think that because I’m pregnant I’m trying to be strong and not stress out for the sake of my girls. I know that’s what my dad would have wanted me to do.
You are one very strong lady. Big hugs!
Thinking of you and your family today.
Wonderful tribute to your dad. I am so, so sorry.
Chelsey - I am so so so sorry for your loss! Your post about your dad is beautiful - a moving tribute. I’m keeping you and your family in my thoughts. xoxo
I’m so sorry Chelsey! This moved me to tears. I hope one thing you can take comfort in is that your two girls will always have someone looking out for them. Thinking of you and your family!
Chelsey,
I am so so sorry for your loss. There are really no words to express my sympathy but I am thinking and praying for you and your entire family. Take comfort in the good memories and the support system you have around you.
I am so sorry about your dad and totally understand what you are going through. I also lost my dad this year and it was the hardest thing I have ever went through in my life.
Thinking of you. XOXO
I’m so sorry Chelsea. I lost my dad to cancer and I understand what you’re going through. He’ll definitely always be watching over you and your girls…he can be their guardian Papa. I love that your family is reflecting over the funny stories and memories, that is absolutely how he would want to be remembered.
I love that - their Guardian Papa.
Thanks.
Hi,
Thanks for your post. My dad just passed away a few weeks ago so I can truly understand your heartache. Nothing like it before and nothing like it again. I read the following poem at my Dads funeral and I thought you’d like to read it.
Wishing you peace.
Maureen
When tomorrow starts without me
And I’m not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things
We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you;
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
She said my place was ready
In heaven far above;
And that I’d have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye;
For all my life, I’d always thought
I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do;
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad;
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday
Just even for awhile,
I’d say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
I might miss come tomorrow;
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven’s gates
I felt so much at home;
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne.
He said, “This is eternity
And all I’ve promised you;
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it all starts anew.”
“I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
And since each day’s the same day,
There’s no longing for the past.”
“But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true;
Though at times you did do things,
You knew you shouldn’t do.”
“But you have been forgiven
And now at last you’re free;
So won’t you take my hand
And share my life with me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart
For every time you think of me,
I’m right here in your heart.
Oh man, that poem was a tear jerker. Thank you for sharing it with me.
Im so so sorry for the tears. My Dad had CLL too and passed away a few weeks ago from having a low immune system and catching necrotising fasciitis. Sad when the treatment/side effects is the killer. I hope they find a better way.
Many prayers to you and your family.
Maureen
I know. I’m with you on that one. The hardest thing for my dad was knowing that the CLL was going to be the thing that eventually killed him. I am so sorry your dad had to go through the pain and struggles of NF. I hope his doctors kept him comfortable and at peace as he went. Our daddies are definitely not feeling any pain any longer.
Wow Maureen…What a beautiful poem & such a beautiful tribute to life & the eternal life we have to look forward to! WAS reading this with tears! Tears for Chelsey & her family with such a loss & the blessing knowing he is in a perfect place with a perfect God with a perfect body! God bless you &God blessed Chelsey &her family! Could you possibly send the poem & to my e-mail please?s
[email protected] Thank You!
Oops …the e-mail is [email protected]
And, I am very sorry for the loss of your father too Maureen!
So sorry to hear that Chelsea. Although I can’t say I’ve been in your shoes, I can only imagine what it is like. Thankfully your strong faith in God will help you and your family through this hard time, and the fact that he is no longer in pain is always comforting to know. Prayers to you and your family during this time
Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now. Your dad sounds like a pretty incredible guy and your daughters will have a guardian angel watching over them. What a great tribute to him.
Oh Chelsey, I’m so sorry
I’ve been completely absent from most social media for the past little while, so I had no idea… Your dad sounds like a really amazing man, and while death is never an easy thing to deal with, knowing that it’s only a transition from one life to the next is extremely comforting. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers <3
Thanks Amanda. I’ve been totally cryptic in my prayer requests so no one really knew what was going on. My dad was a pretty private guy so I never wanted to share anything about his illnesses before.
My heart aches for you. I’m sure you have lots of thoughts about your babies and their grandpa swirling in your head. My dad passed away when I was 5 years old and there isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t mourn his death. Of course I’ve moved on and live my life every day, but that doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten. There’s always something to trigger him - dating, driver’s ed (he was an instructor), going to college (his alma mater), meeting my husband, getting married, remodeling our house (was a shop teacher), etc. Soon I’ll have children and it pains me he won’t be able to enjoy any of this and see the woman I have become… but I remind myself he can. Just not in a physical sense.
I wish you all the best during this time. You’re a beautiful woman and your words speak beyond measure. Praying for you!
Thank you Stacey. I definitely know what you mean about mourning continuously. While I feel so at peace right now and have only shed a few tears in the last 12 hours, I’m just thinking about the few nexts - father’s day, my (our) birthday, the birth of my baby girls… I know grief can just hit you like a ton of bricks when you least expect it.
Oh, my heart.
Chelsey it seems you are grieving and celebrating your father in a way that brings healing and love into your heart and to those in your family. I believe he will be with you in spirit in the delivery room welcoming your little girls into the world and he will be so happy and proud and at peace.
You are in my prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss Chelsea. I lost my father when the summer before my freshman year of college and there is nothing like the loss of a parent. It took me a long time to not cry when thinki about him but please know that it will get easier and you will be able to remember all the wonderful happy times you had together.
Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Wonderful post and tribute to your dad.
My heart goes to you and your family at this difficult time. I’m soo sorry for your loss and am thinking about you! Xoxo
I am absolutely speechless. All I can say, is that I am praying for comfort for you and your family. I cannot imagine your loss and grief right now, but I’m so glad to hear that you have the peace of Jesus’ promises. I’m sure, at this very second, your Dad & Jesus are laughing about that volcano joke
xoxo.
much love!!!
LOL - I think Jesus probably told my dad he was lame for ever telling that joke.
Chelsey,
I have never commented before but I had to let you know I’m praying for you and your family. This was an amazing tribute to what sounds like an equally amazing Dad.
Prayers,
Jocelyn in the STL
I’m so sorry Chelsey. I almost lost my dad last year and it was so incredibly hard.
You and your family are in my thoughts.
Chelsey, I am so sorry for your loss. I’ve been a reader for a few years but really don’t comment too often. I’m a bone marrow transplant nurse in NYC and I know from my personal experience how brave and strong your father must have been. I hope you continue to find comfort in these wonderful memories of him.
He was such a strong guy to have gone through everything he did. I honestly never heard him complain once. He always just wanted to get better so he could be with his family. He always took it in stride.
Prayers and hugs Chelsey. He sounds like such an amazing person.
Wow, Chelsey, such a beautiful post. I don’t think you could have chosen better words to capture such a lovely existent your dad has created for you, and how amazing he was.
And one of my favourite quotes: “Tough times don’t last; tough people do.”
Chelsea, I’m so sorry to hear this. I lost the closest people too me, two years ago (my grandparents) to cancer and almost lost my dad at the same time. I completley understand how you feel, it is so hard to watch loved ones suffer and not being able to do anything to help them. I’m very glad he is at peace now and like you said he has a new body with no pain that he can use to do what he pleases now. You and your family are in my thoughts…Hugs…PS. your girls will know your Dad through you and your memories
Thinking of you Chelsey… what a beautiful post. May your amazing memories carry you through this challenging time and be a source of light for your family in the upcoming months and years. Hugs!!!
Chelsey-What a beautiful tribute to your dad. I have been thinking about you and your family and I am so happy to hear that he is at peace. He will definitely be present in the lives of your girls.
Much love!
I am very sorry to hear of this great loss. Peace be with you and yours, Chelsey.
I’m so sorry for your loss Chelsey, my heart goes out to you and your family. This post was absolutely beautiful, and he sounds like he was an incredible man.
Omg girl that just absolutely tore me up. I am SOOO sorry for your loss and just cannot even imagine. I am however happy that your dad is no longer in pain. Sending so much love your way <3
I am so sorry for your loss, and so grateful you are finding comfort knowing he is in a place where he is no longer in pain. He will be watching down on you and his new grandchildren, keeping you in my thoughts.
I am sorry for your family’s loss. Thinking of you and your family during this time.
Beautifully written, Chelsea. My thoughts are with you and your family.
*hug*
What a beautiful tribute to your father. I am so sorry for your loss and am thinking of you and your family during this hard time.
Just so beautifully written, Chelsea and I am incredibly sorry for your loss! My thoughts are with you and your family xox
Wow. I am so sorry for your loss. That was an incredibly beautiful and well written post filled with many points I had to stop and set my phone down and catch my breath or my eyes from tearing. I don’t know you but I think your a very strong person! Very admirable. Hang in there girl!! Xo
Thank you Nicole - I appreciate it. I’m being strong because I know it’s what my dad would have wanted me to do for my family, especially these baby girls.
Chelsey, I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. I am happy that he is at peace now. My heart goes out to you-it must have been so difficult not to be with him, physically. I’m sure the gift of two beautiful granddaughters was able to make up for that in some way, but it must have been so hard. I love that your family has so many humorous moments to reflect on, though. Also, I see that you get your looks from your mom! What a stunner! My thoughts are with you all xx
I am so sorry to read about the passing of your Dad. I lost my dad a little over a year ago to esphoageal cancer and still think about him every day. Wishing you and your family peace.
My goodness. My heart goes out to you and your family, Chelsey.
Such a beautiful, heart-warming post and tribute to your father. It’s obvious how you became who you are today, and your girls will meet their Papa through your example. I am so sorry about your loss, and we are all sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and love your way. <3
I am so sorry for your loss. Your dad seemed like such a wonderful and endearing person. This was such a beautiful post to honor him. You’re in my prayers.
This is such a beautifully written tribute to your dad. My prayers are with you and your family. xo
Thinking of you and your family! This is an absolutely beautiful tribute….xo
Hi Chelsey — what a beautiful post about your Father; the way you describe him brings tears to my eyes. Undoubtedly, he must be so proud of you and your kind heart and passion for education and food. I’ll be sure keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. God bless.
I’m so sorry to hear abut your dad but am glad he’s not suffering anymore. I love all the memories your family has, and that you guys want to discuss them and laugh about them.
This post was a beautiful tribute. Sending love to you and your family.
Oh, Chelsey, I am so sorry. I had no idea. You and your family will continue to be in my prayers.
Thanks friend!
Absolutely beautiful. I love that you’ve been laughing, reminiscing, and introspecting. I firmly believe that these three things make grieving a little more bearable. I’m so sorry about your dad, and I’m keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
What a beautiful post, Chelsey. Your dad’s personality shines in every story you shared and I’m so happy to hear that you and your family have been able to find comfort and laughter in your memories. I am truly sorry for your loss and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Praying for you and your family, Chelsey. I loved reading this post - so beautiful and filled with truth.
I’ve been thinking about you since last night and wish I could give you a big warm hug. I hope you find peace and comfort with the kind words from all your readers and the support system you clearly have. Much love to you dear. Keep your heart full with the wonderful memories you have. xo
much love and sympathy for you Chelsea. We are so sorry hunny.
So sorry for your loss Chelsey
Deep condolences to you and your family at this time of loss. I am so glad to know that you have Faith and knowledge that your father is in Heaven with our Lord and Saviour and that he is pain free, whole and happy. May God’s everlasting love comfort you in your time of sadness.
Chelsey,
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You can take this with a grain of salt, however, it may make you feel better since this is something I believe…it has been said that pets and young babies/children have the ability to see people who have passed. I know that some people will think this is just faux, but I do believe in such. For that reason, although your father may not be physically present/visible, you can count on him being present.
I hope this brings you more comfort!
Thanks Alaina. I’ve definitely heard stories of little kids talking about family members that have passed (either from before their born or when they’re younger) and I love those thoughts. We’ve already had a couple of family friends share stories of kind of strangely eerie things happening last night and them believing it was my dad letting them know he’s okay.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. This was such a beautiful tribute to your father - filled with happiness and memories to help counteract the sadness you and your family are feeling. Sending prayers to you all
I am so sorry for your loss. This was a beautiful post though and brought tears to my eyes! Sending love and prayers for you and your family.
I am so very sorry for your loss. From experience I know you are never ‘ready’ to say goodbye to a parent. Your post is a wonderful tribute to your dad. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Chelsey, I am so so sorry for your loss. I am sending lots of love your way!
I’m very sorry for your loss! I understand this is a very difficult time and I thank you for sharing some memories of your father. The Volcano joke and the Mermaid joke were pretty bad but I couldn’t help but laugh
Sending prayers your way!
I am so sorry for your loss Chelsey. I cannot even begin to comprehend what you all must be going through. This is a beautiful post and I admire your strength during this hard time. Sending prayers to you and your family.
Chelsey, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. What precious memories you have to treasure of your Dad- he sounds like a wonderful man.
I pray that the Lord will comfort you and sustain you as you grieve- thank you Jesus that we grieve with hope!
Chelsey- I am so, so, so sorry for your loss. Keep all of those special memories of your dad with you and share them with your daughters. My thoughts are with you and your family right now.
I’m so sorry for your loss, Chelsey. You and your family are in my thoughts!
The second I read the first paragraph, I had a hand-to-mouth-inhale moment. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what it feels like to lose a parent. I’m dreading the day. I think the way you and your family chose to celebrate your father’s memory is beautiful. Prayers for all of you.
Thank you Lindsay. It was definitely a tough road, and he took it all with stride. He never wanted to worry his kids and really made it into “not such a big deal” when it totally was. He was pretty selfless in that way.
Oh Chels, I wish so badly I could be with you right now. You know I’m here for you though, even if it’s miles away. This was such a beautiful post, and I’m so glad you have so many awesome memories of your dad. He sounds like a great man. Love you so much!
I am so sorry for your loss, but I pray that you will continue to find strength and comfort in the wonderful memories you have of your dad. My father passed away 10 years ago, and the one thing that helped me the most was realizing that I would have rather had my father (who sounded a lot like yours…loved corny jokes, loved his children) for 21 years than any other father for 71.
This post was such a wonderful tribute to your father.
Prayers and hugs.
Thanks for that perspective Lauren. I am definitely glad I had my father for as long as I did.
Chelsey-many prayers & hugs. <3 I am so sorry for your loss. It is such a tough thing to lose someone so close to you, and my heart aches for you & your family. This season of separation is tough, but it is just that-a season. You will see him again, that I know!
p.s. I think those jokes are actually quite funny! hah.
What a beautiful post. I am so, so sorry for your loss, and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Chelsey, what a beautiful post and amazing attitude you have! May God continue to provide peace to you and your family.
Chelsey -
First, what a beautiful tribute to your dad! Second, my dad passed away last Thanksgiving morning after a long battle with CLL. Reading your words reminded me so much of my own dad, and his supportive way, sense of humor, etc. While he won’t physically know your kids, they will know him through how he helped to shape you and your siblings, and hopefully through some of his terribly awesome jokes. Right now is probably a whirlwind of emotions, but be patient with yourself and getting through them all. Somedays, the weirdest triggers bring back a flood of memories or tears or just missing him… but it will get better with time. Thinking of you and your family!
Abby
I’m sorry for your loss as well Abby. CLL is devastating mainly in part because the person who is suffering from it and their family knows that it is eventually what takes them.
This is such a beautiful post. Prayers and best wishes for you and your family!
This is an absolutely beautiful post. My sincere condolences to you and your family.
What beautiful memories and tributes of your Dad — sending lots of hugs and prayers your way today — I am so sorry for your loss, and my heart is aching for you and your family. You have such a wonderful attitude, and know that you have another guardian angel now.
What an incredible post Chelsey.
I have never read an entire blog post until I began reading your blog. Your honesty is so rare and very strong. It is so refreshing and pure.
Losing your dad must have been incredibly hard on your entire family. When you described him, his characteristics and lame jokes reminded me so much of my dad. Thinking about my life without my mom or dad is unbearable. Your words show so much strength and in return makes me value my parents and family so much.
Reading this post made me think about the girls and how I know you wish he could meet them. We all know he will from heaven.
It made me think of the Jack Johnson song, “If I could”:
A brand new baby was born yesterday just in time
Papa cried baby cried said your tears are like mine
I heard some words from a friend on the phone didn’t sound so good
The doctors gave him two weeks to live
I’d give him more if I could
You know I would now if only I could
You know I would now if only I could
Down the middle drops one more grain of sand
They say that new life makes losin’ life easier to understand
Words are kind they help ease the mind I miss my old friend
And thou you gotta go we’ll keep a piece of your soul
One goes out, one comes in
You know I would now if only I could
You know I would now if only I could
“One goes out, one comes in”. And in your case TWO very special ladies are on their way
What a beautiful post and great pictures of your dad. I am so sorry for the loss of your father. Know that his jokes will live on through my son, who already loves them.
Praying for all of you.
I’m so sorry for your loss and I will definitely keep you and your family in my prayers. I’m so glad you were able to spend time with your family and remember all the good times.
thinking of you and your family! xoxo
There’s really no words that will necessarily make you feel better right now, I’m sure, but please you are in my thoughts and prayers. Your dad sounds awesome and this was a great tribute to him.
Thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.
Sending my deepest condolences to you & your family. Thinking of you.
so sorry to hear this, Chelsea. keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so deeply sorry to hear about the passing of your father. I know this is a very tough time for you and your family and I will keep you in my prayers.
Dear Chelsey,
Sending love and prayers to you!
Love,
Jennifer
Chelsea,
I’m so sorry for your loss. What a great gift to have had such an awesome Dad. You will see him again!
Nancy
Another one of his jokes – “What did the mermaid wear under her shirt?” “An algae bra.”
That made me LOL! I love you all xoxoxoxo
Let me know if you need anything!!!
Chelsey,
I am so sorry about the passing of your dad.
I too, know that he is in a much better place now. That was such a beautiful blog. I love the aspects of humor you are able to gleam, reminisce and relive. Your father will be missed, but he has left a legacy of his wits, humor, and passion with you all. Wish the family my love. I’m so proud of you.
-Tommy
Thank you Tommy. I know my dad loved you - one of the Wimp Brothers.
Your dad gave me an update a few months ago about everything you’ve done. I am proud of YOU!
So sorry to hear this. Even though I didn’t know your dad, and I feel like I kind of know you through your blog and I’m sure he was a wonderful person. God be with you through this tough time. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m sorry for your loss Chelsey. Thank you for sharing these stories of your dad with us. I also have a wonderful father and I know how special that is. I’m thinking of you and your family. God bless!
Many, many prayers for you and your family.
Chelsey, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I couldn’t even read your entire post because I just lost my Mom about 6 weeks ago and I would start crying if I read the entire post. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I lost my Dad 8 years ago so I remember how that feels as well. God comforts us and gets us through these difficult times though. He holds us by our hand and carries us through. I love the 23rd Psalm and read it often. I will be praying for you, your Mom and your family.
Chelsey I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and will keep you and your family in my prayers. Sending lots of love your way!
I have never commented but I have been reading for a few months now. I want to tell you that I am deeply sorry for the loss of your father. I lost my dad when I was 18 to a sudden heart attack! You will see signs of your dad all the time to let you know he is watching over you and your new family! Take peace in the fact that he is in Heaven and no longer suffering!
Chelsey - First, I am truly sorry to hear about the passing of your dad. I also lost my dad recently and it is so therapeutic to just write. Your story made me smile and cry — Keep telling his jokes…they aren’t thaaat bad
You are in my prayers.
I am very sorry about your loss. I lost my dad last year to cancer. Keep smiling and your dad will want you to do the same!
Chelsey, I am so sorry to hear about this
I am praying for peace for you and your family!! xoxo
Thoughts and prayers with you and your family!!
So sorry for your loss. I think it is great how you and your family have been celebrating your dad’s life and recalling fond memories. I hope you find comfort in knowing he is at peace now and no longer suffering.
Chelsey,
You are a very strong person, I am sure that wasn’t exactly easy to write. But what an amazing man to have to go through such pain. But as you said, he is in such a gooood place right now! And with heartache comes joy- which your little ones will be brining!
I Wish you and your family courage, love and strength at a time like this. You guys keep each other company and spend as much time as you need with your loved ones.<3
Lots of love. LP <3
I’m so sorry for your loss Chelsey. This was a beautiful post. Thoughts and prayers are with your family!
Chelsey,
I will keep you and your family in my prayers in the coming weeks. What a wonderful tribute post, I can tell you made your dad so very proud. Your babies are going to have an awesome angel watching over them as they grow
I’m so sorry for the loss of your Father. I can’t imagine going through such a loss while pregnant, but it seems like you are handling this really well. You’re definitely a strong person. It seems like he put up quite the fight and i’m glad he’s no longer suffering.
Iwill keep you and your family in my prayers.
I never met my father’s parents but from all the stories I’be heard about them I truly feel like I know them!
I’m handling it well because I know it’s what my dad would have wanted me to do for his grandbabies.
I’m definitely trying.
That first picture of you & your dad is beautiful. Thinking happy thoughts for your family right now. Your little girls are going to bring you so much joy.
Chelsey,
You are a walking, talking, inspiring tribute to the best of everything your dad was in this lifetime. Your beautiful daughters will take the best of both him and you and carry it forward. What an incredible life to live, and what a blessing to have a family who loves you so much they can let you go. It’s the ultimate act of selflessness, and something that he would have done for you if the situation had been reversed. I am so sorry that he passed away, especially before he had the chance to physically meet your daughters. But, they will know the best of him through you, and he will guide them from today all the way through their lifetimes. Sending prayers and love to you! <3
Oh Chelsey. I am so, so sorry for your loss. This post was so beautifully written, and your dad sounds like an amazing man. I just said a prayer for you and your family. I am glad your dad is at peace.
I am so sorry for your loss and sending thoughts and prayers to your family!
Oh Chelsey I am so sorry about your loss. My heart is seriously aching for you right now. You and your family will be in my thoughts! <3
This is such a wonderful tribute to your father that brought me to tears this afternoon. I’m so sorry for your loss, but on the same token, he’s at peace now and no longer suffering. And having all the cake and beer he wants. It breaks my heart that he won’t see your two little girls when they’re born, but you know he’ll be watching over them. You couldn’t ask for a better guardian angel than their own grandpa.
I’m so sorry, Chelsey. You wrote an amazing tribute to him, and I know he would be so proud. xoxo
life is short but sweet for certain! so sorry for your loss
So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you at this difficult time.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, but I am absolutely positive he went straight to heaven and his spirit is with you and your family.
Chelsey-Reading about your dad brought tears to my eyes-what a beautiful tribute. Your dad sounds like such a special soul. Thinking of you!
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My heart goes out to you and your entire family. Your dad sounds like an amazing man and he is in a better place now. I will be praying for you <3
oh chelsey! i had no idea! heart broken and i can’t imagine - but God can and I’m praying for you!
Thank you Lindsay. Maybe my dad is hanging out with your two babies - he loved to love on the little ones!
I am so sorry for your loss. It is always so hard to lose a loved one especially when its to disease. Eventually peace will come that he is no longer suffering.
I’m so sorry to hear this, Chelsey. It sounds like you two had a really great relationship, that you’ll get again in Heaven. Your girls will be lucky to know they had such a wonderful Papa.
I believe everything happens for a reason. I think you are pregnant now to help you cope with the loss of your dad. I also think your dad is now meeting your girls before you get to meet them
Thinking of you and your family.
❤
I love the way you think - and I honestly think you are right! I actually said to someone I work with that I am close with about how even though it is difficult now because I am pregnant, that I can’t imagine going through this with two infants to care for.
I am so very sorry Chelsey. Loss of any kind is hard, but when it’s your parent…I can’t even imagine. There are no words in these things. I’ll just keep praying for you and your family.
Chelsey,
I’ve never commented here before, but definitely a long time reader. I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you and your family…I can’t imagine what you’re going through but hope you find a little comfort knowing there are hundreds of people in the blogging world thinking about you and sending love your way.
Chelsey — I am so sorry for you. When I lost my dad, my friend told me “I’ve heard God pours life into death & death into life without spilling a drop.” It brought me comfort and continues to. I hope it does the same for you, especially as you continue to prepare for the arrival of your beautiful babies. Holding you and your family high in prayer.. Xo
I’m so sorry for your loss, Chelsey.
So deeply sorry for your loss. What a beautifully written piece honoring your father. thankful he is now at peace.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is never easy, but it sounds like you’ve found a little bit of peace already. After my dad died (I was 20), my family and I almost spent a lot of time telling stories and looking pictures. As you’ve found, it’s important to celebrate their lives.
So sorry for your loss. I prayed for you and your family and will continue to do so. May you all be greatly comforted in this season of grief.
I am at work right now, literally in tears. thank you for sharing that beautiful tribute to your dad with us. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now-take care of yourself and those babies right now.
Oh. I’m sure you have read a thousand I’m sorrys for your loss. I am completely sorry for you loss.
My uncle died the week before our last ivf cycle and i like to believe in reincarnation. Unlike to think that part of the uncle I love is there among the twins.
My heart goes out to you.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss - reading it gave me chills. My dad passed away when I was 16, it will be 9 years this june. You and your family sound very strong and close, and this i assure you will get you through the hard times, and the harder times. I can only imagine how you must be feeling, pregnant with twins and having your dad pass.
It is shockingly similar to my father, except his sister (my aunt) had twin girls in May, and then her brother (my dad) passed away suddenly almost a month later. She went through highs and lows immediately, he only saw the twins once before he passed away.
One thing I know for sure is my mom and brother and I are able to laugh about memories now, and know that memories are with your forever.
I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. Sending thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It is so hard to let them go, even when you know God is truly calling them home… it’s the harder part to be left behind, waiting for the reunion. My husband lost his dad to pancreatic cancer 2 years ago, and I know how hard it is to lose your parent so young… I also know one of my biggest regrets is Ron never getting to meet his grandchildren. Just not how life worked out.
Sending you lots of love, Chelsey. May God’s Peace be with you through this really tough time.
I don’t know what to say. I am so so so sorry to hear about this and I’m thinking about you and your family and sending you lots of strength!
I’m so sorry for your loss. My mom passed six years ago & it feels like yesterday. Thoughts and prayers for you & your family. May Gods peace & comfort be with you.
I am so sorry for your loss, Chelsey. Stay strong and know your dad is looking down on you.
Wow Chelsey, I am so so incredibly sorry for your loss. Reading your beautiful tribute to him has literally brought me to tears. Life is not fair so often, and bad things happen to amazing people who don’t deserve anything less than health and happiness, and I can tell your dad was loved so very much. Thinking of you and your family during this time. Your girls may never physically meet your dad, but they will know him through your stories and kind words and special memories that you share.
This is a beautiful post and I’m so sorry for your loss. Love and prayers for you and your family <3
I’m so sorry for your loss Chelsey. Your dad sounds like he was an incredible man. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss, Chelsey. My sincere thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. This is such a beautiful post. Your dad truly sounded like such a wonderful man and it’s important to keep all of those memories and jokes alive especially for your little girls. Stay strong! <3
Chelsey, I’ve never commented before, but wanted to tell you how truly sorry I am about the loss of your dad. I lost my dad in 2010 when I was 24. I lived in a different state so I know how hard it is to not be able to be right there with him. I’m very lucky to have been able to see him just a few days before he passed. I’m so glad to hear that you are surrounded by family and that you have been sharing memories. It is the best way to heal. Your dad will always be in your heart.
Oh Chelsey I am so sorry to hear of your fathers passing. May you find comfort in God and knowing that your Dad is pain free and rejoicing in Heaven! Prayers to you and your family. Such a lovely and beautiful post dedicated to your father.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to lose someone, especially someone so near and dear to your heart. Its times like this where you can feel the love from family and friends and appreciate the ones who are still with you!
I am so sorry for your loss Chelsey, I am sending my love and prayers to you and your family as you heal.
I’m so sorry for your loss, but I’m glad that you’re finding comfort in the fact that your Dad is no longer suffering.
I am so sorry for your loss. Love and prayers coming your way.
Chelsey, I am so very sorry to hear of your Father’s passing. I am sending lots of love, prayers and thoughts your way. Please take care of yourself during this difficult time.
I am so sorry for your loss, but glad your dad is at peace. You will be in my prayers tonight.
What a beautiful tribute to your father. I’m so sorry for your loss and will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers.
How beautiful & inspiring that he is no longer suffering. I’m sure he knew just how much you lived him, even if you weren’t able to be in his room.
The jokes & stories you shared made me chuckle..and I hope you continue to remember all the good times during this difficult time.
So sorry for your loss but I’m glad that you have your faith to comfort and encourage you. Jesus is our hope for life after this world. Your dad sounds like he was a great guy. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
So sorry to hear about your Dad…what a beautifully written post.
This brought tears to my eyes. What a beautiful tribute to your father! He will forever look down and protect you and your family. They say the good always die young…God bless your dad and God bless you and your family through this rough period.
“The righteous perish,
and no one takes it to heart;
the devout are taken away,
and no one understands
that the righteous are taken away
to be spared from evil.
2 Those who walk uprightly
enter into peace;
they find rest as they lie in death.” Isaiah 57: 1-2
I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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i am iyncredibly sorry for your loss. this post brought tears to my eyes - your dad sounds like an amazing man. no doubt, he is in heaven right now watching over your family and your baby girls! <3
oh chelsey, this post is so heartfelt and wonderfully written. i’m so happy that your dad has found peace in heaven, but my heart hurts for you and this post brought me to tears.
just know that you have love and support from people ALL over the world! my prayers are with you and your family!
I am so sorry Chelsey! I have no words other than to say you and my family are in my prayers.
Chelsey,
I had the pleasure of having your father as a teacher back in 1984. I was always amazed at his memory. He could remember names and dates like few people I knew. He was a hard demanding teacher but fair; the type of teacher you needed. I was saddened to hear of his passing. Even after all this time I remember him with foundness. Remember Chelsey, lawyers change the rules under which we live our lives, doctors may save a life, but it is the teacher that can change the world. During his career he touched many lives by being a teacher. He changed the world positively in ways he probably never knew. It is good to hear you are a teacher, I am sure a piece of him will live on everytime you teach your students.
Wow, Steve - this message warms my heart. I am so glad that he had enough of an impact on you for you to even remember him almost thirty years later. I know he loved his job and his students. I can’t even tell you how many stories I have heard throughout the years. Hard, demanding, and fair - that was exactly the type of father he was, and it was the type of father we needed.
Thank you so much for commenting. I really appreciate it.
My thoughts and love are being sent to you and your family. It’s hard to watch a love one leave us, but it’s always comforting to know they are no longer suffering. Memories never die. <3
I’m new to your blog, but felt compelled to comment. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. Your post was so heartfelt and honest, and greatly touched me. You truly reminded me how precious life is. I just wanted you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.
Thank you Holly - I appreciate your kind words.
Oh girl I am so so sorry. My heart breaks for you. You are so strong and I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I am praying for you and your family during this trying time.
I am so sorry for your loss. My mother passed away a year ago the same way!!!!!! So sad for you and the family but know he is now out of pain. I am new to your blog and have twin girls too!!! I will be thinking of you!
Wow, talk about similarities! I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. CLL basically sucks. It’s horrible that it’s the immune system deficiencies that kills people. Hugs to you! How old are your twins?
I am so, so sorry to hear of your loss, Chelsea. This post is incredibly touching, and [of course] has left me in tears in the middle of work. I can’t even begin to imagine the things you and your family are/have been going through; my heart and prayers go out to you all.
Oh Chelsey, I am so so sorry for your loss. Your dad sounds like such a incredible, warm, and loving person. What a beautiful post. If there’s anything I do to support you, please let me know. And know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so sorry for your loss! Reading all the wonderful memories you have with your dad brings tears to my eyes, that is sooo sweet! Cherish those memories!! My prayers go out to you and your family. I am sure he is looking down from Heaven, so blessed to have a daughter like you to write such a beautiful tribute
Thank you Hannah! I was definitely blessed to have him as a dad for 25 years!
Chelsey,
I am so so sorry for your loss. I will be praying your your dad and your family if that is okay with you.
Michelle
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. Your dad sounds like he was a wonderful man who taught you so many enduring life lessons.
Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
He certainly did. While I definitely didn’t appreciate it as a kid
, my parenting style will definitely emulate his in many many ways.
Oh Chelsea, I am so sorry for your loss and hope that you will take comfort in all of your memories. I will admit that I opened your blog and after I started reading… had to shut the page because I could not make it through your post the first time. I also lost my father too early… but today I was able to read the rest. I am so glad you have so many memories and so many funs stories to tell your children. Do not stop telling stories and do not stop having birthdays for your dad- you should continue to celebrate him. My thoughts are with you. Please take care. xoxo.
I’m so sorry…. You dd a beautiful job on this post.
Chelsea- I just caught up on my blog reading today and wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prayers.
Hi Chelsea,
We’ve never met but my desk was next to your dad’s at Rich South from 2000-2005. I remember how he proudly and lovingly updated the pictures he had of you and your siblings at the start of each school year, making sure to take the time to share them and tell a little story about how each of you were doing. He was always beaming when he spoke of his family. I am sorry for your loss. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
May peace be with you,
Jen Pollack
Hi Jen,
Thank you so much for the kind words. I appreciate it!
Hi Chelsey,
I don’t always comment here, but this was beautiful post and I wanted to say that I am so sorry for your loss. Nothing can compare to losing a parent, but I lost my grandmother two years ago and it was very hard. There are so many things that run through your mind when a loved one dies and sometimes you experience regret and/or guilt. Kudos to you for respecting your father’s adamant wishes on not going in to the hospital room. I can’t imagine how hard that must have been.
To reference your Thursday Thoughts post, it’s amazing how going through their stuff brings such wonderful family memories. When we lost my grandmother, I learned so many amazing and humorous things. Her husband, my grandfather, was long gone before I was even a thought in the world, so I never knew him. But we found a box of old cards and letters that my grandmother kept from him and it was wonderful. My grandfather had a drinking problem. My oldest uncle loves him, the middle hates him, and my father doesn’t know him (all based on their own relationship they had with him), so I had so many mixed thoughts about a man I never knew and all that changed when she died. I learned that at one point in time, he was a good man and my grandmother sure did love him. On the funny side, my dad’s contact photo in my phone is him standing in her bedroom with her “housecoat” on. I think of her often - when my sister bakes with her ancient KitchenAid mixer, when I see some biscotti at a coffee shop, when I put on my heels and think I’ll be a little old lady walking around in heeled slippers just like her.
It’s so hard to lose someone you love and you’re right…upcoming dates will be difficult. To be cliche, just know that he’ll be there. He’ll be there for every single moment, proud as hell and enjoying the view. But someday, you and your family will play Scattergories and though you’ll certainly think of him and miss him greatly, you’ll smile for the memories instead of cry because he’s not there.
God bless you and your family.
Hi Chelsey - I’m so sorry for you and your family. I can’t even imagine the heartache you all have, but sounds like you have some great memories to cherish. xoxo, Megan
Aw, Chelsea…I am so sorry for your loss. It definitely sounds like you + your dad had a special bond, which is something you will have to cherish forever. I’m sure your kids will still grow up loving their grandpa from all of the stories they’ll hear. Sending love + hugs. xo
I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine how you feel. Please know we are all thinking about you. I knew I should have grabbed Kleenex before I read this!
I’m so so sorry to hear it Chelsey. I lost my father 5 years ago to lung cancer…it’s an experience I wish no one would have to go through. You and your family are in my thoughts and my prayers.
I just read this .. I’m so sorry for your loss… I haven’t lost a parent, so I can’t know the kind of pain that is, but you’ll be in my thoughts and prayers!
Chelsey, please know that you & your family are in my thoughts & prayers through this most difficult time. I worked with your dad at Rich South for many years. He was an amazing person. Your father & I had many conversations in the coach’s office regarding everything from politics to educational perspective. Wayne exemplified determination, reliability and most of all, integrity. He was truly respected as both a teacher & coach by both students & staff. He was a leader by example and always had the best interest of the school & students as his priority.
Thank you Nick - I appreciate your kind words!
This is such a beautiful tribute to your dad.
Thanks for sharing this… I wasn’t following you yet last year, so this sheds some light on what you’ve gone through… so sorry for your incredible loss, and what a beautiful tribute you’ve written- thanks for sharing. I hope the one-year anniversary has you remembering all the special things about your wonderful Dad.
Just reread this. Beautiful
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This was beautiful and makes me appreciate my father a little more on this Father’s Day! Def brought a tear to my eye.
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